Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Running on Empty

I am running on empty...The last two weeks I have been at work once again. I give props to women who can work and be a breastfeeding mom to a 10 week old. Because I am worn out. My schedule for the last two weeks has been; I wake up at 5 am (if I am not already up) to feed Addie and pump, 5:45- hand baby to my dad or mom so I can take a shower, 6:10- get everything she needs for sitter by the door, 6:15 eat breakfast while I feed Addie, 7:00 - leave for school, 7:!5 - drop Addie off at the sitter, 7:20- drive to school, 7:30- arrive at school, 8:00 - start teaching high school students in Spanish till 3:35 while pumping in the girls locker room office every 2 hours, 3:45 - go pick Addie up from Sitters, 4:15 - get home, 4:30ish - feed Addie and continue to feed and carry her around till about 7:00 because she doesn't want anyone else but her MAMA....7:00-get things ready for the next day, 8:00ish - give Addie a bath, 8:30 feed Addie, 9:00 - Lay Addie down, 9:15ish- Pump again, 9:45ish - get myself ready for bed, 1-3am - Feed Addie when she wakes and pump, After feeding try to get a little more sleep till I have to wake up again at 5am. And I have been doing this without my husband for the last two weeks. But luckily I have one more week left till I say Adios to work for a little while. And can breath. I am not to sure how single mothers do all this everyday. I would go CRAZY!!!! I am so happy that I have a loving husband that continues to support me through my crazy and emotional state. And if you are asking why I am in such an emotional state. Well #1 I am leaving my job that I have loved for the last 5 years to stay at home with a little munchkin that I will love for the rest of my life. #2 We are trying to get our house ready to rent, while Jeff and I are both working full time at work and not living at our house in Indianapolis. Does anyone know anyone that wants to rent a house??? Or maybe buy one??? #3 We are trying to get our cars all in working order so we can sell at least one. Know anyone that wants to buy a Chrysler Pasifica?? -44,000 miles, its a nice car we just don't need two any more....# 4 I have moved in with my parents for the last few weeks and I feel displaced and missing my own place, plus its the week before my brother's wedding, so its getting a little loco!! #5 Speaking of new places. We are now living in the middle of no where and I feel like my life is on pause as my husbands life has gone on -because he is living there and I am with my parents in Indianapolis - once again .... But as my mother says...this too shall pass...just be praying for me....I AM GOING CRAZY....

4 comments:

Amanda said...

aw...girl! thinking of you! *hugs*

We the Hornings said...

Yeah, hang in there. Add a baby to life/work and things feel a bit crazy...I'm sure even crazier without the hubby. Hold on, Steph!

We the Hornings said...

How much are you selling the car for? Any other details?

The Wallace Clan said...

Whew!! I have to say I had to take a deep breath after just reading you blog, nevertheless living it! haha!! I know and trust you are doing a great job and I do have to second that this is such a SHORT season in your life that will be gone before you know it! I hope to see you guys soon :-)